"pif
i dreamt that gackt was going to die today >< and before he died he had a true love.. how, why, what i don't know.. but i saw his last moments on the last of her.."

quoted by myself on Thursday, January 17, 2008..
this, was most probably the most accurate dream that i've had that foretold the present.
it's rather surprising, the time this dream occurred.. i've never had prophetic dreams this close to the actual event.. all my previous dreams told of events that would happen in a few years. thus making me feel like it's deja vu as those dreams show exactly what will happen. explicitly but far away..

this can be considered my first step into a new realm of prophecy.. but it's just me imagining myself to have some sort of power. but grant me that doubt..

the first dream that i don't want to be accurate on, apart from my first nightmare about vampires..

but if i'm accurate.... it will be a happy yet sad life ahead of them.. i wonder if it happened before or after i had this dream..

may god bless.

ken.off.

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it's been awhile.. though maybe this is the first time i'm feeling worried and sad..
before with syl, val and amanda.. i don't think i've ever had the need to feel worried.. or sad for 2 of them.. maybe it gets worse as i get older.. this should be classified a terminal illness=_=" many people fell sick during this period but i was fine.. until i realised that i'm sick too.. i'm not down with flu but down with love.. i guess? if not why will i be worrying my head off? or maybe i'm really developnig fatherly/brotherly tendencies?

that's most of what i could only think about after the ads3 test finished. with just 1 hour left to es3 test.. i think i actually became sad and emotional.. things like punching walls, but i restrained myself from throwing furniture around.. but chester is nice to hug tho =D~

if it had been anyone else, say chris or, do i dare say myself?, i wouldn't be so worried..

maybe when i'm typing this i'm hoping for an internet all-powerful to bless her.. i hope she will be safe and happy and cheerful.. that o-chibi..
haiz..

ken
-believed to have fallen.

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pif
i dreamt that gackt was going to die today >< and before he died he had a true love.. how, why, what i don't know.. but i saw his last moments on the last of her..


sad-ness..

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ken signs off~

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Dear Diary,
yesterday was a fun day at SP's oppen house~ ironically.. haha~ and most of the fun was with SPJCC and those who know us. Like of Kurabawa who isn't even in SP yet. He cosplayed as Gin for us~ He is like our most major attraction XD Kei came too~ I was rather happy to see her~ And I think I actually hugged(maa somewhat) her this time~ During that day i also found another Sinjukai member. Kagemaru/Darrel. He's a brown there and he's only year 1~ I may be taking karate lessons with him too~

Later that night, sora, chris, serene, joyce, kura and i were having sp's mac for dinner~ it seems that chris was amanda's classmate back in primary school XD and his birthday was 1 day before hers~ then kura had to poop XD so i walked him to the new CLS building to do XD while waiting for him i sang and sang XD i wonder if he heard~ <3

but.. after that i started to wonder.. do i actually like her? i had heard that she had a bf before.. such a possibility had never crossed my mind.. i wonder.. (ahh a note to myself who may read this 10 years later ._. you're enjoying the times now~ it's fun~ there're friends around~ it's truly one of the last few school experiences you're feeling) would it be better to let go? or to just ignore anything that may happen and just dive in? (ahh another note =,=" to myself: i think my heart is aching but it may be because of this song ._." yes you made it in less than 1 hour yesterday~)


maa.. i just know that i'm happy when i'm with her.. and sometimes i'm sad when some things happen to her..

ken snores off in true-ness and love

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