Hai! I confessed to her today!
yesterday actually ^^

got rejected though ^^
I had decided that, no matter what, I had to tell her today.
I believe that if I face love head on, it would come back to me two times stronger.

If you're reading this, I must say that it was way~ too awkward and ごめんなさい。
But I am happy enough that I got to tell you before anything happened.
etc, accidents, etc, loss of sanity, etc..
It was very fun, making everything.
If you've anything you want to do, do it before you regret.
No matter how crazy it may seem.
Like how I didn't confess three months earlier.
Once time is gone, it really never comes back.
Thinking, "Oh! There's still tomorrow~",
will make tomorrow never come.

But I'm still ok that I can camwhore, haha =)

everything, the world is still carving it's endless road around the sun,
the electricity bills, unstoppable by even the mightiest titan, are ever rising,
my own heart, actions, thoughts have not stopped.

Maybe, when I'm old, I would look at our pictures and wonder, 'who is this?'
Maybe, ten years down, I would have attained my greatest love.
Maybe, one year down, I won't be able to think of her in this way anymore.
Maybe, one month down, I wouldn't be able to stand not talking to you.
Maybe, tomorrow, I won't be able to get up and walk around.
Maybe, one hour later, I will be awake thinking of her.
Maybe, one minute later, I will miss her more.
Maybe, one second later, I won't be able to see her ever again.

I didn't give up then, but I wonder if I'll finally give up.
It had never felt wrong standing beside you.
In pictures.
While drinking coffee.
And numerous others.

Maybe I couldn't differentiate love from a good friendship.
I just wanted to hear "おかえり、あなた" too much.
After that long break, I was truly glad when you called my name.

-If you keep your feelings concealed, and people don't sense it. They won't ever know how you feel about them-
^from a korean drama xD
I will surely communicate my feelings properly!
If there is a next time that hasn't slipped out of my reach.

I thank you for everything ^_^
think it over again if you can!

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